Marry a man who loves you more than you love him. A woman will always give more than what is necessary to her lover. It is ingrained into her, like maternity. But even when a man loves you more, he will still only be able to meet you halfway.
— Rihanna (relaying advice given to her by her deceased grandmother)
“When I was 19, my girlfriend and I were going to study in Paris. Our boyfriends came to the docks to see us off. Right as we were getting on the ship, my friend’s boyfriend said to her: ‘If you go, I won’t wait for you.’ So she turned around and decided to stay. My fiance saw this and told me: ‘I won’t wait for you either.’ I said: ‘Don’t!’”
note to self: self destructive behavior doesn’t always involve alcohol, drugs, or illegal substances. u can self harm with sex. u can self harm by depending on others for validation. u can self harm by having self deprecating thoughts. u can self harm by believing the lies that people tell u about urself. ur not ugly or stupid or worthless. u can do anything u want. u are enough. u are adequate. U feel bad right now but these feelings are only temporary. let them persist. don’t fight them. u can feel bad. just don’t stay there.
And female strength is always something I marvelled at.
As a former FSSW and one one with a lot of SW friends I always meet girls with a ‘story’
Girls who are 18,25,30 carrying baggage of 60 year olds but still these girls clock in to every shift and just keep going.
Literally just keep going and don’t even allow themselves to even ponder what happened
I’ve had friend tell me ‘I was raped my a client yesterday’ and be back taking bookings the next day.
One of my friends was a stripper she’d have all kinds of shit done to her by her woman beating dead beat boyfriend put on her body makeup and keep it moving.
How the fuck are we so strong ?
Like I never saw these girls cry
How sway!!?
These girls are young AF too
Even when I tell people shit I’ve been through they’re like ‘are you okay!!! OMG I’m so sorry’ and think im lying when I say I don’t even think about shit no more
Like it don’t even cross my mind
I cry for like a day
Sleep
Wake up and keep it moving
I think that’s why some of us keep ourselves so busy. We don’t even allow our mind time to even process some of the shit we’ve seen.
Even when I think of these low income mothers who have gone through all kinds of domestic violence. They just clock into their next shift and keep it moving
Will we ever ‘crack’
I wonder.
From my experiences- they become bitter, ruthless or emotionless. The type to set a guy’s house on fire. A lot of the sex workers I have met in person have been fairly cold but know how to make money out of any guy. I know too many women who’ve had their lives destroyed by men, who have committed suicide because of them. It leaves a bitterness in your throat. A vow to never give away yourself completely. Even to hurt men in return and play as many manipulative games with them as possible.
Women are stronger than any man ever will be or wishes he could be.
